I hate losing weight ... or should I say, I hate the process. I'm terrible at it, however, I really do need to shed quite a few pounds. I started on that journey about three months ago and have lost 20 lbs so far. I dithered about whether or not to share this, but I know there is more than just me in this same unstable boat!! The reason that I finally decided to share is that I've had some disappointments about the weight loss. if you know someone who really struggles with weight loss (and especially if you have never been in a fat body yourself!), don't pass along negative comments to them. Always keep things positive. Encouragement, I find is the key to either make it or break it.
I have for the past three weeks fallen off the diet wagon, and I have to admit it was for two reasons. One was the fact that my schedule has been in the pits lately with both of my kids being home with me. My son has been home because the high school teachers have been on strike for the past 5 1/2 weeks!!!! (INSERT ANGER WORDS OF YOUR CHOICE!!) And my daughter is home from university, and although she does finally (thank goodness!!) have summer employment, it's only part time. So my kids who can be a tad
lazy needy, are constantly asking for food ... breakfast, lunch, and snacks. It's so hard to prepare food for others of the tasty kind when all you're allowed is lettuce (well, not really, but you know what I mean).
Secondly, and on top of all of that, a certain someone made a rather mean and thoughtless comment to me a couple of weeks ago, and it completely shot my determination out the window. They let me know with no uncertainty that I was wasting my time, and all the weight I lost would come back. It really made me feel horrible. And to be honest, I have lost a lot of weight before, and gained back almost (but not quite) all of it. It just isn't the sort of discouraging thoughts I need in my head. Don't you find that dieting is a lot more psychological rather than physical? I have to argue with myself all day long to eat the proper foods, constantly playing mind games with myself to keep on track. It's mentally exhausting!
Today high school teachers have been legislated back to work. After almost six weeks of strike our government ruled that their strike has been found to be illegal ... about bloody time! And today, with my daughter at work, my son in school, and my routine restored, I have gotten back on the diet. I can't say whether I will reach my goal or not. And actually I haven't even set a "goal", because I plan on eating this way from now on. One of those "it's not a diet, it's a way of eating" food management things. Yes, I am following a plan, and actually if you're interested the book I've been using is "The GI Diet" by Rick Gallop. This diet really works. The first part of the book is a diet, and the second part of the book is maintaining good eating habits for life. This is how I lost weight before, but I slid further and further away from it because I got lazy. My brother-in-law lost over 100 lbs following this diet, and he has kept it off for about six years. I admire him for his will power ... I know some days it can still be tricky.
And that's really all I wanted to say. Be kind to those who struggle with weight loss. It's not funny. It's hard work! And it takes a loooOOOooooong time to achieve good results. I'd like to say to anyone who is currently dieting, or just eating better: Good for you! I understand how hard it is to rationalize every bite you take, but keep your eye on the prize, and you'll get there in the end!! If you fall off the wagon, don't despair. Wake up to a new day and a fresh start with a firm resolution that you CAN do this. Don't allow all that effort of dieting for days or weeks or months to be wasted ... get back into the good routine of eating healthy again TODAY! As my niece told me, it takes 21 days for a new thing (like eating healthy) to become a habit. So if it's early in the game for you, keep heart and get past the three-week mark for it to become a little bit (or hopefully a lot!) easier.
I am at the realization now that my weight will not all come off before summer. I think I was sort of panicking about that at first. And that one ill-timed and unfortunate comment to me made me feel like it was all hopeless. But today I have a new determination, and I have to just get through one day at a time, right?! Maybe next month won't find me wearing the shorts that I bought the first time I lost weight. But hopefully at the end of summer I'll feel a whole lot better, and I'll be able to treat myself to some new clothes for fall ;)
Thanks for listening to my little rambling today ... I hope to soon have some gardening photos for you next time :)